Sometimes there’s more female in me than male, those days I call myself a womyn. Sometimes when I’m with other ladies, sharing the special bond that our gender segregation has allowed for us to develop, I feel like a womyn. But never entirely. You see me and you see a woman. But I am in between that gray area that wants it all. Maybe it’s ambition, I don’t know, the need to have more than one gender, or not be confined to any of the two, or simply saying, I am sometimes more female than male, I don’t really want to change anything down there, but I don’t feel like a womyn or a man. But what does it mean to be a woman? There’s an energy to womyn, I don’t know how to describe it, like this aura.. You might see it when you see a group of powerful mujeres dancing at a fandango. That’s how I saw it for the first time, and I realized, “that’s what being a womyn is”. I can’t put it into words but I saw it. And I loved it, I adored it, I felt blessed to witness that presence. “But that’s not what I am” I realized. I’m not one of the guys, though my straight friends for some reason talk to me like I am. So what am I? Personally I don’t like the word “queer”. It might be empowering to many people, to reclaim the word, but I don’t feel very good when I say it. It reminds me of all the discrimination that exists. I don’t like LGBT as much either, I don’t fit in any of these words. I’m what some native american nations used to call “Two-spirit”. But I can’t claim that I am “two-spirit” because I’m not native american, maybe I have some quechuan in me from south america but not from norht america. I am… I am … I am.. I am… this is like trying to define the pigment in my skin, brown and white, and yellow, and even some black somewhere along the line of ancestry, I am just a human being. I appreciate this energy that females possess, but I am not a female, nor a male. I’m a soul. I’m beyond tha binary. Souls have many genders, souls have many colors. I’m a soul. My “queerness” is my spiritual purity. I am a combination of lgbt, put it on a blender and that’s me.

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